Curious in the Country

It has been nearly a year since my last post and that is embarrassing. But, no excuses, it's been a year of transition and chaos, both externally and internally. Thankfully, my writing "sabbatical" is lifting, slowly. It began with turning a corner on a previous stance about a certain thing called Facebook. Once vehemently against, I've experienced a gradual but complete change of heart, much to the delight of many. I still stand by my critique that if not careful, Facebook breeds either narcissism (self-involvement) or voyeuristic tendencies. However, I've learned to celebrate that large middle ground where it can really be a great tool to stay connected to one another in community, albeit digital. Bottom line is that I honestly didn't think Facebook would've lasted this long, and my hold-out was largely a wait-and-see tactic. Ultimately I finally gave in because of the persistent efforts of a great friend (you know who you are) who wasn't afraid to repeatedly broach the topic and call me out for being too proud. Thanks buddy.

Although I haven't been writing, I have been thinking. And thinking. And thinking some more over the last twelve months since beginning my call as Pastor of Big Bend Lutheran Church. Some of these thoughts have crept their way into sermons and conversations with members. I have also found a great community of pastors out here, as well as friends/family all around, who have been great listeners and thinkers alongside me as I wrestle and ponder the deep things of God and the universe. To them I am incredibly fortunate and appreciative.

All of this rambling stems from my growing frustration with the existing structures of the world, especially the way we "do" church. It's not that I am unhappy with my call or overly annoyed with how church is conducted at BBLC. I genuinely love what I do and where I am. No, my frustration runs much deeper and has created a profound curiosity about almost everything I once thought true about the Christian faith. Seminary was a pivotal and mostly an enjoyable time of formation, community and leadership development. But ministry in the parish forces you to unlearn so many things and throw much of what is taught out the window or into a back corner of your mind. Then, you start questioning one thing and pretty soon (at least for me) everything comes into question and raises suspicion.

I've said enough for now. My curious contemplation will continue... Facebook is risk enough for now. In time, I'll reveal some of the other risky thoughts that are stirring in this mind which refuses to stop questioning and wondering.